How Does Past Trauma Affect Your Life Today?
Not unlike an Artificial Intelligence (AI) algorithm, throughout our whole life, we collect data and develop programs that run in the background in an effort to understand and allow us to perform better as we encounter new situations and circumstances.
We run thousands of tiered If-Then-Else programs in the background, our subconscious, in an effort to have better experiences as we go forth into an unknown future. This is how we learn. This is how we grow, and this is how we limit our potential and quality of life.
At the moment in time that a program was initiated, it may have been appropriate and fit for the situation at hand, but now in the present day, the old program is still running, and it may not be serving you in the now. In fact, it may be hindering your potential for living a better life.
Let’s say you had a parent that would leave you unexpectedly alone when all you really wanted was a little love and attention. At first, you would desire of cry for attention to no avail. You never received the love and attention you sought. After a while you wrote a program to help you to deal with the situation, so you could go on with life.
IF your parent left,
THEN you would change your expectation, assuming they would not return at all.
“Fine,” you might think, “I will just find comfort in my time alone with myself. I don’t need anyone.”
ELSE the parent returns, you have already asserted confidence in your own independence, you might reject their presence, encouraging them to leave,
“Why don’t you just go enjoy yourself elsewhere? I don’t really need you here.”
You reason its better to reject than be rejected, plus the pain is far less severe by lowering your expectations, creating boundaries, and enforcing them. All at the young, tenderest of ages.
Even at such an early age, when you may not have been able to form the words, you were a survivor. You developed a program that made you stronger, more independent.
If you never recognize it, delete, or reprogram it, that program continues to run in the background to protect you and keep you safe, even if it no longer serves your best interests. Left to run on its own, it will affect all areas of your life, from career to social interactions, and the quest for love.
That’s just one program among thousands, or more likely millions, of programs accumulating in your subconscious machine code.
Hopefully, by now, your starting to realize that you are the Master Programmer (MP). By taking the time to go back and check your old programming codes, you can delete old programs which no longer serve you, and/or replace them with newer, more useful programs which will empower you to live your best life.
SOURCE CODE SEARCH
Search for the programs by reviewing the traumas of your life, year by year.
Make a T-Chart for every year of your life. Title it by your year of age and the calendar year.
On the left side of the page, list any traumatic event you can think of.
On the right side of the page, across from each traumatic event, detail how the trauma affected your life. This will help to identify the program which needs to either be deleted or replaced.
This process is never complete because as you start to look for trauma and either delete or reprogram the subroutines, more data becomes accessible.