https://davidmmasters.com/blog/your-shadow-self/ Transfiguration Specialist, author, public speaker, coach, consultant, master trainer Fri, 22 Feb 2019 16:24:27 +0000 hourly 1 https://davidmmasters.com/blog/your-shadow-self/#comment-1047 Fri, 22 Feb 2019 16:24:27 +0000 http://davidmmasters.com/?p=4608#comment-1047 Hello.
This is the first site I’ve found that explains …well ..my unexplainable.
20 years ago…something terrible happened to me…I didnt remember until just a few months ago. The memories are back now though -and they are physically painful to remember. The memories are like they JUST happened…I can FEEL them.
I am what they call scitzophrenic..
It started about a year before my memories returned. I hear things that cant be explained…. a girl….she tells me “she is me” …she is in no way threatening and seems to only want what is best for me. ..the craziest part is she seems to know things I do not…she will wake me out of a dead sleep if I’m running late for something…she gives me like a 3 second warning before I trip over something or fall..and if I’m really upset and I asked to be comforted I will be washed with a feeling of calm…she’s always felt more like an angel then a psychological figmant… I have had past attempts at suicide-i should not be alive- no excuse why I am….she’s says she saved me. ..she’s says I cant die yet.
When I cry she let’s me know she is there for me and I am never alone…and she tells me one day i can come home….but not yet.
I know this is definition insane….but thing is she tells me she made.me forget what happened….she told me I was too young to handle the pain…she says she could not change what happened …but she could make me forget…at least until I was strong enough to handle it…..and so she did… now i wonder every day what else i dont remember….what else happened to me…if i would even want to know if I could….
I spent 20 years with people I should of never allowed in my life…simply bc I did not remeber….and now that I do….I dont know how to handle it…my shadow self is the only one in my corner …and i dont want to lose her. …but I’m aware that I’m crazy, and people shouldn’t talk to things that aren’t there and I dont want to end up in a mental institue….please tell me…what would you do?

]]> https://davidmmasters.com/blog/your-shadow-self/#comment-1046 Fri, 22 Feb 2019 16:03:55 +0000 http://davidmmasters.com/?p=4608#comment-1046 I made you forget- so you could be whole.
But over time it crushed your soul.
I couldn’t keep out all the dark
Though I tried to protect your heart.
I’ve been here with you this whole time.
Protecting what I know is mine.
A sad little girl lost in the rain.
Drowning quickly in her pain.
I knew my actions must be fast.
So I made you forget your ugly past.
A future untainted but what you’ve seen
A world so cold, and dark, and mean.
I gave you hope- when you lost it all.
I was there to catch you-when you fall.
I watched as you cried yourself to sleep…
Your sadness thickening as you weep.
I tried to wipe away the tears….
But I’m afraid my touch leaves only fear.
I live in darkness ..
But your my light.
And I need for you to be alright!
I know your scared
But your not alone
And one day soon I’ll bring you home.
But please for now just breathe in deep.
And know you can always count on me.
I’m your shadow
I’ll follow you anywhere.
If you need me – I’ll be there
You’ll never feel alone again.
I’m right here…
Under your skin

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