Infidelity Unrequited Love Abandonment Prison

Your fiancé left you. She chose her vice over you. You are feeling the pain of loss, betrayal, infidelity, unrequited love, abandonment, prison of your own making, and you are dramatically overwhelmed. She left without a word. No explanation no goodbye, only brash accusations that you were the one at fault. Because you love her, you are in pain.

You start asking yourself, “Why?”

    • Why would she leave?
    • Why would she choose this vice over you and your love?
    • Why would she lie, cheat, and steal?

Then you start questioning your part in all this.

    • What did I do?
    • What did I not do?
    • Was it something I said?
    • Something I did?

Because you still love her, and there was little or no closure, you still want to reach out to her, leading to more questions,

    • Can I help her?
    • Is there hope for us?
    • Can we overcome this together?
    • Will she open up and talk to me?

Your questions are met with silence.

What next?

From here on out, it’s your turn to end this story.

You’ve taken it upon yourself to hire an investigator who has confirmed the severity of her infidelity and its power over her. You have some data and information about her life as a sex worker as the result of your investigation. You have photos, license plate numbers, maps, and a list of over 150 addresses where she has exercised her right to engage in her vices. You know exactly what devices and programs she uses, what methods she uses, how long she entertains her clients, and what menu of services she provides. You know how much she charges (and when she does charity work), how she collects the finances, and how she deals with it.

You know she has kept this vice a secret for years, since before you came along.

You know,

    • She is not going to open up to you.
    • You cannot save her.
    • She hasn’t wasted a thought on you.
    • She doesn’t care about how you feel about her.
    • She doesn’t care about how you feel about yourself.

She doesn’t care about you, at all.

Whether there was a time that she did or not is insignificant.

Yet, here you are, day after day, going over every detail, every nuance, every piece of data, every imaginary recreation of her being with others, then with you afterward on a regular basis while you were together. Imagining what she has done since, and continues to do every day.

This is your prison of your own making.

You blame her for it, but you’ve constructed it for yourself in her name.

Every moment that you spend in this prison is on you. You created the prison.

You are your judge. You are your jailer.

You’ve created the rule of your restraint and containment.

Once you know this, it can come as no surprise that it is you who holds the keys to your prison.

And when the day comes that you are done punishing yourself in her name, you can take the keys, open the door and set yourself free.

When you do, forgive yourself for sentencing and punishing yourself in this way, all the while knowing that you suffered in the name of love. Even though it was unrequited and painful.

You loved. Your love was true. Your love was pure.

But it’s over now.

With your newfound freedom, you will be able to start your new life.

A new life with a new world of possibilities.

What about her? What about forgiveness?

Unnecessary. Though you might require to do this act of forgiving for yourself, your own mental wellness, but not for her.

She is happy. She is living her life the way that makes her feel good. She loved the life she had with you, she would have loved being married to you and being a secret sex worker, but she knows that if you knew, that would never work for you. So, she left.

She continues to do this work that gives her life meaning. It is not about you, never was.

You may feel awful about you being at opposing ends of this scenario, but no one is wrong, here.

Yes, she accepts a certain degree of risk for engaging in illegal activity, which is illegal at the moment, but know that laws are changing and the decriminalization of sex workers is in the works as you are reading these words.

No judgment. Forgiveness may be necessary for the transgressions against you, but not for her life choice(s).

Most sex workers are people who have experienced severe trauma in their past, and this activity helps mitigate the damages of their past, and these victims are doing whatever they can to feel a little better.

You might act out like this, but you are not her.

After all, we’re all doing the best we can with what we have.

The least you could do is to allow her the same respect that you would expect if you were in her shoes.

Let her go with God’s blessings.

Let it be.


Prison of the Mind

You are an amazing being with a divine nature which you were fully empowered with when you were first conceived. On this world, there is a counter-divinity program which is designed to stomp out the sacredness of your divine nature and the main weapon wielded to snuff out your inner flame is society’s prison of the mind.

In the prison system, there exists a continuum of restraint systems which are used to control individuals with a propensity to break laws or resist the expectations to conform to social norms.

This spectrum of restraint spans from very loosely-enforced broadly-accepted behavior which allows the most freedom to move about a specified area with minimal monitoring to highly-restrained with very limited movement within a very small space, monitored continually.

Society has its own similar levels of restraint, which are also a spectrum spanning from borders designated by geography with the highest level of freedom bestowed upon those expressing the greatest amount of conformity, to those with less desire to conform to social norms, disobey the rules, or are steadfastly rebellious in nature.

If an individual resists conformity enough, those who refuse to submit may find themselves amidst smaller systems of restraint in an effort to control the uncontrollable or force them into compliance. It is believed by exerting the right level of force over a period of time, an individual will give up, and eventually accept the life of conformity in exchange for more freedom.

The most powerful and personal method of restraint used by society is the prison of the mind which is fueled by fear of danger, restraint, and punishment.

Social engineers know if they can control the minds of the people by the tightest, invisible, prison of their own mind(s), they have successfully created a society of manageable subjects, who will monitor and police themselves. For those who resist, there are other avenues of intervention or restraint to encourage their submission spanning from counseling and drug therapy to in-patient treatment and imprisonment.

The prison of your mind is the most powerful method of restraint which keeps you from embracing your divine nature, prevents you from living a better life, and limits your ability to achieve your highest and best.

The division of corrections which exists only in your mind keeps you small and separated from others who would otherwise be an extension of yourself as you are of them. You have a set of limiting beliefs which cause you to compare and judge everyone and everything that goes on around you, in a constant underlying state of fear.

These emotional restraints are associated with feelings of inadequacy, envy, jealousy, as well as a sense of entitlement, supremacy, and the desire to see others suffer or be punished for having something which appears to not be within your grasp.

Rather than applaud someone’s massive success, you secretly hope they experience a massive correction and lose it all, for they are not any more deserving of the windfall, inheritance, or profit from their labor than you, or anyone else.

If you have to struggle and suffer, it would make you feel better if everyone in life had to share your lot in life.

Fear can be effectively restraining you from reaching out, celebrating your individuality exercising your ability to grow, change, embrace your divine nature, your talents, gifts, and destiny to expand and evolve, affecting not only your life but the lives of others, your community, and the world at large.

Fear of non-conformity, fear of not being accepted by friends, family, the community, fear of non-support, fear of correction, and fear of failure. How horrible would it be to step out of cadence and exercise your sacred right of full personal expression, only to fail, to be ridiculed and made fun of by your peers for daring to even think about such insanity?

The prison of the mind can keep you in a constant state of considering yourself to be a victim of life, when all the while you have all the power of the universe at your fingertips if you only dare to claim it.

Yet, the fight to control us by the prison of the mind is a war that is waged 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, utilizing all methods of influence and control in an effort to keep us subservient.
Even so, there is a growing awakening among the populous.

Are you among those awakening?