Alone and Suicidal on Christmas

There I was alone in my bed in the fetal position in my bed. I had suffered so much loss, buried my stepson, watched my family break apart, suffered financial loss, attacked by people I loved and adored, non-physical entities, as well as predatory psychopaths, which left me feeling hopeless and helpless in this, my darkest hour. I had never felt so alone and suicidal on Christmas as I had in that moment.

I had planned the steps necessary to take my own life in a clean and quiet manner, in such a way as to not make a spectacle or leave behind a mess for anyone to clean up, knowing that it would be a while before anyone found my body.

I’d spent a lifetime helping others with their mental health issues as they’d sought me out for support along their path to achieving their highest and best. I’d been a student of the therapeutic sciences. Up until this time, I had only a background in Pastoral Counseling, Christian Therapeutic Sciences, and mastered Neurolinguistic Programming (NLP) and Hypnotherapy, as I dabbled in other modalities. I thought the more tools I had, the better assistance I could offer my clients. I had huge success in working with others using prayer and meditation.

I had a good life, full of treasures and traumas, and had experienced the entire spectrum of experiences this life had to offer. I felt that I had lived more life than the average person up until this point, so it wouldn’t be like I’d be missing anything. I had made a positive impact on the lives of people I’d counseled and trained, which meant that whatever energy I’d passed onto them would survive and continue to serve the world in my absence.

I felt as though I’d done the best I could, and could not see any way to recover from my current state of affairs. I was hurt, desolate, exhausted, and felt as if I had nothing left to give. I knew the holiday season was a time for increased suicide, and now, I knew why. Even though I knew I would just be counted as another normal statistic (I’ve always been resistant to being considered “normal”), I was determined to see this through.

I would leave behind children I loved more than anything, who would not understand why their parent would do such a thing. So, in a last-ditch effort to give them some spiritual support, especially now during the holiday season, I decided to send them love.

While I loved them, I really had no love resources left within me to give. I was empty. The only thing I could do would be to send them God’s love from some infinite source from without and beyond myself and send it to them.

I used self-guided prayer meditation to send this infinite unconditional love to each child and to their children as well. This was late on Christmas Eve, and I thought my coup was inspired because any lift of their spirits which they may have felt from this spiritual effort, would have been attributed to the holiday season.

Using this meditative process, one by one, I filtered this infinite love through every cell of each child’s body, their mind, and the deepest parts of their psyches and souls. After I’d completed the process and blessed each child, I felt like I could do more. (Not realizing this was a huge improvement, already from when I started this process.) So, I continued the process for extended family members as well.

I thought about my friends and neighbors, how they could use a boost, which might help when they’d heard of my taking my own life, so I sent love to them using this meditation.

It was at this point that I decided to include the people who had disrespected and attacked me on the behalf of predatory individuals, and the predators as well. For even with all things considered, weren’t they only doing the best they could with what they had? Many of them did not know what was really going on, nor any recognition of how their actions would affect me. I sent unconditional love to every one of them.

Then, I felt compelled to continue the process to include my local community, the state where I resided, the country, other countries, and the world.

Then, I thought, remembering this is the time of the season that others would be taking their lives, along with me, so I sent love to them, that they might grasp enough of this love, that they might be able to make it one more day, because in most cases one more day could make all the difference.

I had imagined their lives as not being as full and complete as my own, and thought if given the chance, they could have plenty of life ahead of them to experience a better life, possibly their best lives, and maybe even help to make the world a better place, if they could just make it through this tough time. So, I sent love to them.

I thought, even if only one person was able to feel the love to make it past this moment without taking his or her own life, my life would have been worth it.

I felt as if my efforts had made a difference.

After my last act of benevolence had been completed, I noticed that I felt better. The sun had come up. It was a fresh Christmas morning. I looked outside to see no snow, but it was cool and brisk, and I was alive. Feeling more alive. As if I had made a contribution, and my dream… My dream of being able to reach just one person had come true.

While I had flowed all that eternal love through me to others, it filtered through the cells of my own body as well.

I had come out on the other side, strong, and at peace with all that was.

That Christmas morning, I vowed to expand my studies to include energetic work, in an effort to better understand what miracle had just occurred.

My practice of Sending Love to the World became an annual event for me, personally, and others have joined me in sending love to the world at this time of year.

If you feel so inclined, you could join us in sending love to the world this year, and every year.

We start sending love to the world on November 11th, and continue through the 1st of January, in the hopes that we might help to make the world a better place and by all means save some.


Christmas Morphing

Let’s fight over stuff, anything that can keep me separated from you, so the powers that be can sit back and laugh at how we’re mere puppets playing into their hands as they roll on the floor laughing out loud, or not. What? Christmas morphing? They never thought that Christmas had enough power of love built-in to its design to morph into an idea that spans all thought systems. Love wins out, again.

While many religions still reject the idea of Christmas as heresy, more and more Americans are embracing the idea and finding their own way(s) to define it for themselves. Christmas is becoming much more than just the celebration of the birth of Jesus, it’s an American tradition.

Here, in the United States, you are allowed to subscribe to any religious belief you like, or no religious belief at all, if you so choose. Angels are like that; they don’t care who or what you are. Angels love you and are there for you, no matter what you believe. God is like that, and increasingly, the All-American-Christmas is embracing all peoples with open arms.

This brings comfort to most but is reason for concern and disdain for the traditionalists who think they are the chosen few who can celebrate Christmas authentically (even if it does have roots in religious beliefs which they do not ascribe to). Christmas is not just for Christians anymore.

The American Christmas rekindles the flame in all of us, that the world could be a better place. That any of us could find a place in our hearts to be kinder, gentler, friendlier, and loving to our fellow human being(s). Even, if only momentarily, we set aside our differences and find joy in being alive, getting a glimpse of what it might look like if we were all “one.”

All one, we are.

During the holidays we are able to find within ourselves the ability to set aside our differences for a better world. This is part a parcel of our burgeoning human evolution. We get to peek into the future, thanks to the All-American Christmas.

We believe there could be goodness in anyone. We believe even Scrooge or the Grinch could find love in their hearts, someday, somewhere.

Even though a government-ruled legal and financial system, and a failing societal structure which are not sustainable are still in place, even amidst all the chaos, there is peace for Christmas. Something inside us wants to reach out, love, and help those who have less in some way because ‘ere but by the grace of God, go I.

During the holidays we are optimistic and hopeful for a better world. We are grateful for what we have, as little as it may be, and may have a twinge of sadness or compassion for those who have less than we do.

Empathetic caring and compassion are in the air. And as much as we’d like to help our fellow man, still many homeless will be hiding out without adequate basic human needs. The sick and dying will not be offered the medical treatment and care they need, and it is well-known this is the most popular time of the year for suicide. There are so many in need who are just outside our reach.

We set aside our differences to have get-togethers with family, friends, co-workers, acquaintances, and even people we have never met. We greet, smile, tell stories, laugh, cry, and embrace. At that moment, the world is a better place.

Our ego takes the back seat while we find our place in the vibration of the Christmas spirit, which by the way is the same frequency as love. ‘Ere love and the American Christmas are one and the same. You feel the vibration and you instantly know, this is not how you feel under normal circumstances because you are engulfed in the field of love.

It is a wonderful place to be.

This is the future of humankind, to bask in love’s frequency, and not to be controlled or lorded-over relentlessly, but to love, to be loved, and to be free, indeed.

You don’t have to wait for Christmas, and you don’t have to let go after New Years Day. You can have this for the rest of your life.

And when you realize this, you have awakened to the idea of the endless possibilities which lay in wait for you and your evolution which has only just begun.

Peace on Earth is not a fantasy.

Say, “Goodbye” to all the barbarianism of the day, peace on Earth is the only hope for our survival.

Merry Christmas Morphing

For the Christians who are torqued-off because your private party has been crashed by non-Christians: Lighten up and see the miracle in Jesus’ ability to bring the world together, if only for a moment, and bless all who celebrate His birthday in whatever way they want.

Merry Christmas Rant with Love

It’s Christmas and I celebrate it. My friends and family celebrates, each one a little differently than the other. Yet, everyone gets the idea.

I find it interesting that people find the most interesting ways to divide themselves from other people when it would make more sense to allow us all just “to be” and bless those who don’t see things the way you do.

Granted, some people don’t believe in, celebrate, or condone the idea of Christmas… and who cares? I celebrate your right to believe anything you want.

Second, only to New Years, Christmas is the most celebrated holiday in the world. And thankfully, this “religious” holiday has become so watered down that anyone can celebrate it. Even though it was originally a Christian holiday to celebrate the birth of Jesus, now it represents the advancement of love and peace among all peoples. An idea of which Jesus could be proud of having been promoted by His birthday.

While the majority of us find it easy to wrap our heads around this idea of Jesus’ birthday being a joyous, love-filled celebration of life and the bright future which awaits us all as we unite in harmony for a better world, some hardcore Christians have a problem with non-cardholding-members joining in their holiday celebration.

Now, here’s where it gets a little dicey. Even among Christians (because there’s so many division amongst them), they can’t agree on a way to celebrate Christmas as a whole. Many Christian factions are divided on their celebration of the Christmas holiday, and some refuse to participate at all due to it’s commercialism, or basis in paganism.

Christmas, the whole idea of it represents an evolutionary approach to advancing harmony among all peoples, spreading love and peace. December 25th was originally a Roman holiday to celebrate the birth of the sun, later the Catholic Church (Pope Julius I) adopted this day to celebrate the birth of Jesus, “The Son of God.”

As Christianity expanded across the globe and spread to all nations, unique characteristics were gathered along the way and included into the celebration of Christmas. Christmas evolved to invite anyone and everyone to be honored and to celebrate the December 25th holiday in their own way.

Yes, dragging a tree into the house to mark winter’s halfway point was a pagan tradition, and this idea evolved into the decorated Christmas tree which sets some staunch Christians ablaze with anti-paganism fury. Nonetheless, there is nothing new under the sun, and we all adopt ideas from the past and repurpose them into modern ideologies.

Now, you can fight for the idea of pure thought, uninfluenced by any preconceived thought (which is an exciting thought in itself, I’ll admit) and stand strong, like a marker carved in stone, unmovable, unchanging, in honor of ancient ideals or philosophies, dedicated to preserve the past and defend it, even if it means disrespecting, debating with, or killing anyone who dares to not align themselves with your belief(s).

If that’s you, don’t go reaching for your sniper rifle or loading your vehicle with bombs and think about tracking me down just yet, please hear me out…

Let’s say you believe the way you do, and I believe the way I do and let’s assume there are some differences, no matter what thought systems we’re talking about, religious or otherwise.

And let’s think about how you might like to have people think like you do. Heck, I might even like people to think the way I do. Now, we could kill all the people who don’t believe the way we do, then we win. But I think that we can agree that we’ve seen this approach in the past (or even recently) and can rationalize that this is not really a sustainable model.

On the other hand, we can lovingly turn our efforts into including as many people as possible to play in our game in their own way to make the world a better place, where we all can live in harmony, promoting love and peace.

On one hand, we have “separation” which promotes fear and death and is not sustainable. On the other hand, inclusion, which promotes love which is the energy which gives life, new life, expanding life.

All that to say, “I love Jesus,” and am proud to call myself a Christian but I would never impose my belief upon another person. I love the idea that the world is made of different people all with different ideas and contributions to make and gift to the world. Far be it from me to even entertain the thought for a moment, that I might not be able to learn something from someone else, anyone else.

Jesus is my greatest hero, and I have other heroes besides, and none of us has the right to dictate to another person whom we regard as our heroes. Regardless, even if I was not a Christian, I think I would celebrate Christmas because of the idea of Christmas, as it is celebrated among society en masse, is a microcosm of evolving and expanding life on planet earth.

I get excited about the very thought of Christmas, how it makes people who embrace the holiday feel special, full of love, and desire to do good things for family, friends, other people, and the world at large. A fantasy? Maybe, but what a thing to aspire to; peace on earth and goodwill to all men. That is a dream, that I believe, can one day come true.

You can join me in celebration of that on December 25th, and/or every day, for that matter.

And if you’re among those who are finding the holidays a struggle, when it seems so very hard, and it appears that there is no love for you; there is.

There is great love for you, now, and even more on the way.

Unfortunately, this is the time of year when many people are feeling lost, lonely, at their very worst, and my thoughts and heart are with you. In fact, my friends and I are sending love to you, right now. You might even consider helping us in sending love to the world while getting a little more for yourself in the process, with no strings attached.

If you search inside yourself, you can find the love within you, we are sending you more. We know you can make it, and you have great things to do ahead.

A better life awaits you, your best life, and we need you to help make the world a better place.

There are amazing things in store for you in the coming year.

Merry Christmas to you.

I love you.

I believe in you.

Sending Love to the World

My local community, the country where I reside and the world have come to represent far less than my hopes and dreams for a better world for our children, grandchildren and generations to come.

One look at the media and news headlines clearly reveals what we have come to.

It would be easy to succumb to apathy and just reside ourselves to accept being comfortably numb.

Even so, there are people all around the world who are awakening and motivated to take a part – no matter how small – to make the world a better place.

I have faith that my efforts combined with the efforts of others to agree and support the idea of a better world for future generations where we will realize a luxurious peaceful planet.

One thing we could do is to agree together to send our intentions, thoughts, energy, meditations and prayers to the world in a concerted effort.

Sending Love to the World


sending love to the world 2016Christmas is one of the most loving and caring time of year for many of us. Unfortunately for so many others, it is the worst time of the year with increased depression, domestic violence, homelessness, crime and suicide.

This year, my friends and I will be joining together to send love to the world in an effort to offset some of the negative energy infiltrating our world at what should be a peaceful, love-filled time of the year.

We will be taking time out of our holiday festivities starting at midnight on Christmas Eve and continuing to take breaks throughout Christmas Day, December 25th to send love to the world in any way each of us sees fit. Some will in silent repose intently focus of sending positive heart-felt empowered energy to those less fortunate, while others will meditate or engage in prayer. The method doesn’t matter as much as our intent and agreement to be unified in this energetic effort.

If you are uncertain about how you can join us energetically this Christmas, you can join me any time from midnight Christmas Eve to midnight Christmas Day, in my video guided meditation at

Sending Love to the World

We are awakening, our world is changing and as we agree together to take action in efforts, like Sending Love to the World, we are changing the world in a positive way.

We are not accepting the limitations and separations imposed upon us by society which keeps our energies diminished. We do not allow ourselves to be separated by geography, politics, religion or other thought patterns. Our intense love and hope for a better future binds us together in a way that cannot be untethered. In this way, we are one.

Our peaceful, loving efforts to create and promote a better world for future generations will be rewarded, when we as a united loving force for good and our combined energies reach critical mass.

Please feel free to join us and invite others to join us in

Sending Love to the World

This Christmas, and if you are so inclined, every day thereafter.

Sending love to you and yours this holiday season, and every day,

~ David M. Masters

Christmas the Best and the Worst

Christmas Brings Out the Best in Us

You just gotta love Christmas. It brings out the best in us. We feel inclined to spread good will among men. We are likely to give to those less fortunate and shower family, friends and loved ones with cards,

No other time of the year is focused on making dreams come true, especially for the young (and the young of heart).

Christmas Love

If you have an inkling to love, the increased love or the season will infiltrate all life’s circumstances around you and you will feel a tendency to love more, with more passion than other times of the year.

Seeing the anticipation and tears of joy in a child’s eyes when opening a gift wished for fills the heart in so many ways.


Christmas Brings Out the Worst in Us

Christmastime also imposes an incredible amount of pressure on individuals and families around the holiday season. We might find ourselves battling the crowds in an effort to find that perfect gift (and may be willing to battle it out with another shopper for the last one in the process). While we are s[reading good will, we may find ourselves cussing out someone for taking the parking spot we intended on getting for ourselves.

Christmas can be used as a disciplinary weapon against our children, because, after all, Santa knows who’s been bad or good. And if you’ve been bad, you will receive no present from Santa Claus. (Ugh.)

Christmas Crime

In an effort to make sure everyone has a good Christmas, criminals are not on their best behaviors as they take advantage of Christmas celebrators who are less security conscious during the holidays will see increased rates of theft and burglary.

Interestingly enough, the pressure, stress and strain finds individuals challenged and at odds with those around them, leading to increases in assaults and domestic violence.

Christmas Is Offensive

Christmas is an American tradition based on Christianity. In early American culture Christianity may have been the predominant religion, and the benefit to retailers at the end of the year is priceless.

Since then, America has become much more diverse and people represented by other religions don’t get it. And even among the Christian religions, some find the commercialization of the holiday and the inclusion of Santa Claus offensive, with some refusing to celebrate at all.

Christmas Is Depressing

The holidays increase the load on mental health resources, more than any other time of year as we tend to be more lonely, blue, depressed and maybe even suicidal at Christmastime.

What’s the Christmas Answer?

I am not the political or religious person who could even offer a solution. Christmas is a messy subject in America. This tried and true American tradition has become such a cluster of chaos and confusion, I cannot imagine a suitable solution.

Fortunately, I personally don’t have any issues with the holiday, myself. I enjoy celebrating the birth of Christ and embrace the idea of Sending Love to the World during the holiday season in an effort to help mitigate the negative energy associated with the season.

If you feel differently, I honor you and your right to celebrate or not and I offer you my sincerest apologies for this holiday which has unfortunately gotten out of control.

What do you think the answer is?

Suicide for Christmas

On Christmas, this year, people will opt to end their lives. Though it has been rumored that this is when most people commit suicide, the tragic truth is that suicide rates are far more consistent all year long.

While the holidays represent the best things in life to those of us with family and friends, there are others who face life’s greatest challenges at this time of the year. Suicide is a very real growing concern in the world in which we live with one person choosing to end their own life every minute including one veteran suicide each and every hour around the clock.


The holiday season is the most tragic of times for someone to opt-out of this life as we know it by committing suicide on Christmas Day, followed by another surge of self-inflicted death on New Year’s Day.

Such a tragic state of affairs when there is so much love in the air.

What will I be doing this holiday season?

I will be joining with friends to set aside time to make the world a better place by

Sending Love to the World

I am not in the least bit suggesting that you not do other things to reach out to those less fortunate during the holiday season. Indeed, we should continue to help in the every same ways we have in the past, but this year consider augmenting your efforts by

Sending Love to the World


My friends and I will be taking time out of our Christmas Day festivities to take breaks in order to Send Love to the World.

How to Send Love to the World

The idea consists of taking out a few minutes starting at midnight Christmas Eve through midnight Christmas Day to send love to the world. Amidst all the holiday spirit of love and celebration my friends and I will be consciously excusing ourselves to send love to the world.

sending-love-to-the-world-december-25-2016-sendinglovetotheworld-comSending love to the world can take any form you like. It is not a religious activity, but can be if you so desire. It is a decision to take a break from holiday festivities to send mindful thoughts, say a prayer, sing a song or meditate – in any way you see fit – for the benefit of others who may be struggling at the very same time.

I believe this concerted effort of my friends and I will help to raise the overall vibration (which is already high at this time of year), enough so as to be able to help someone consider staving off their feeling that life is too painful to have hope for a better day, at least one more day.

I know that when I’ve felt like I just couldn’t take it one more day, and death would be a pain-free alternative to life… not killing myself has allowed life to show me how amazing it can be.

I would hate to see someone rob themselves from the opportunity of enjoying the best this life has to offer by just giving it one more chance for one more day.

If I’ve ever learned anything, the importance of allowing one more day is the greatest opportunity offered any of us, which more often than not, we take advantage of every waking day.

Top 5 Holidays to Commit Suicide

The top five holidays to commit suicide are 1) Christmas, 2) New Years Day, 3) Thanksgiving Day, 4) Veterans Day, and 5) 4th of July.

Call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255.

Remember, everything is always getting better.